Tuesday, May 3, 2011

New Beginnings

     When I was little I always thought about how cool it will be when I am "all grown up."  Now that I am at that stage it isn't so cool.  I graduate from college on Saturday, May 7.  Wait a minute... I GRADUATE Saturday!  I am not sure where college went, but it needs to hurry up and come back.  I am about to start a new chapter of my life and I am not sure I am ready for this.
     Everyone always talks about what they are going to do when they "grow up." Well, I'm there and I still do not know what I am doing.  I am an elementary education major.  So, I know I want to teach, but that's about it.  I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world that is currently on the same journey of unanswered questions.  We are both faced with uncertainty, but thankfully we are doing it together.  My family and friends are amazing beyond words and I do not think I could being doing any of this without them, but even with all of this support I still feel lost.

     Growing up is scary and I am not sure I am prepared for this.  I am sitting in my college apartment with boxes filled of memories that I have had over the last four years.  I am sitting here wondering what is going to happen next, what new beginnings I am about to face?

     I just wish I could go back to being a little kid again playing in my backyard not having a worry in the world.  I remember when I was in middle school and everything was so dramatic.  "So and so said this and she did this and that."  Oh how dramatic I was then... thinking that every little thing was the end of the world.  I had no worries then and now I am faced with huge life decisions.  I just wish someone had of warned me.
    Well, I am about to start a new and exciting extremely scary chapter of my life.  Are you ready to begin this journey with me?


  1. It is SO scary... I don't want the responsibility of making these life-changing decisions! But you will be fine and God will open the right doors for you... I love you!